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2008-12-11 works and days
2007-09-01 my new secret diary
2007-08-28 kitteny goodness
2007-08-23 Suzy's new home
2007-08-19 all the reasons I gave were just lies to buy myself some time
2007-08-16 kathy i'm lost, i said, though i knew she was sleeping. i'm empty and aching and i don't know why.
2007-08-15 on the floor at the great divide
2007-08-13 Neighborhood #3 (Power Out)
2007-08-09 all quiet on the midwestern front
2007-07-31 set my spirit free
2007-07-28 sleeping is giving in
2007-07-27 children - wake up - before they turn the summer into dust
2007-07-26 neighborhood #1 (tunnels)
2007-07-19 fish are jumping, and the cotton is high
2007-07-17 the summer of our discontent
2007-07-15 if you're searching through life for something, it's the one thing you'll surely never find
2007-07-11 endless summer
2007-07-06 one of these mornings i'm gonna rise up singing
2007-07-04 independence day
2007-07-02 cause you gotta work hard and you gotta get paid
2007-07-01 it's such a perfect day, I'm glad I spent it with you
2007-06-30 I'll dig a tunnel from my window to yours
2007-06-28 my body is a cage / but my mind holds the key
2007-06-28 i believe in myself slowly / it takes all the doubt i've got / it takes my wonder
2007-06-26 all sins are attempts to fill voids [-simone weil]
2007-06-25 grace
2007-06-24 keep the car running
2007-06-23 when the curious girl realizes she is under glass
2007-06-21 There were places were the luxury dropped off, where I waited.
2007-06-21 fuck
2007-06-20 random thoughts on shared housing
2007-06-18 three in the morning
2007-06-16 dear sons and daughters of hungry ghosts
2007-06-15 running through my veins an american masquerade
2007-06-14 change = good
2007-06-13 it's just a brief smile crossing your face
2007-06-09 jupiter and beyond the infinite
2007-06-09 watching the parade with pinpoint eyes, full of smoldering anger
2007-06-01 i don't wanna live in my father's house no more
2007-05-31 who here among us still believes in choice? *OR* proxima estacion -- esperanza!
2007-05-27 working for the church while your life falls apart
2007-05-22 from a second floor window on a hill
2007-05-22 southeast
2007-05-20 your perfume haunted me long after i saw the swing of heaven's gate opening toward me
2007-05-18 signed, sealed and delivered
2007-05-08 haven't slept a wink since nineteen sixteen. i wasn't born then, but sure feels time's been tickin'
2007-04-24 showering etc
2007-04-21 sight. inner eye. line of sight.
2007-04-16 keep the car running
2007-04-12 haven't slept a wink since 1916
2007-04-10 soon we will reclaim the earth
2007-04-06 faith, children
2007-04-04 Where we're chained to the life -- but that's fine our blood is alive
2007-04-01 reductio ad absurdum
2007-03-28 portland in the morning
2007-03-23 The place, I'll make it all the same, I'll make it in my head, I'll draw it out of my memory, I'll gather it all about me
2007-03-22 this is your new home
2007-03-12 it will be I, it will be the place, the silence, the end, the beginning again
2007-03-10 dream the kind of life that you will find, the kind of love that lasts forever
2007-03-06 you breathe in twenty-five years of failing to describe a feeling
2007-03-02 let me go through
2007-02-28 no children
2007-02-19 scramble belt? research war!
2007-02-12 the grand gesture
2007-02-09 all the trees that line this street will be rejoicing and alive
2007-02-07 don't look for it, you've found it
2007-02-07 i want to go home, but i am home
2007-02-04 someday, this will all be yours
2007-02-02 to those who love the faces in the city
2007-01-31 and i know you belong to everybody but you can't deny that i'm you
2007-01-28 All those keys -- Sometimes it's better to leave doors open.
2007-01-26 where do we come from?
2007-01-25 i'm going to be perfect from now on
2007-01-22 this is the place where time reverses
2007-01-20 drinking sweat in the ash age
2007-01-19 i live on snow and storytales
2007-01-18 tabula rasa
2007-01-17 and there we were
2007-01-16 and trains, the nature of trains
2007-01-14 To make the noise that I kept so quiet -- I kept it from you, Pitseleh.
2007-01-13 your own true nature resumes itself.
2007-01-12 Certain gardens are described as retreats when they are really attacks
2007-01-10 That's where I'd go, if I could go, that's who I'd be, if I could be.
2007-01-10 junk bond trader trying to sell a sucker a style
2007-01-09 if I was crying it was for freedom, from myself and from the land
2007-01-08 the meta entry
2007-01-08 Then it goes, all goes, and I'm far again, with a far story again, I wait for me afar for my story to begin, to end, and again this voice cannot be mine.
2007-01-06 you are a runner with a stolen voice
2007-01-06 at this moment everything looks clear to me, but what happened just before?
2007-01-02 the best of times are when i'm alone with --
2007-01-01 Source. Inside. Infinite.
2006-12-30 she could cook, but she couldn't serve
2006-12-28 somewhere sympathy is more than just a way of leaving, somewhere someone's making plans to stay.
2006-12-25 And the dream? -- even in the hour of treason, it reclaims us.
2006-12-24 Well every person has a wall to go to, every person has heart valves to cure in the cold night air. But you know none of us is pure. You know the anger that language shelters, that love obeys. Those three things. Why obey?
2006-12-23 open your parachute and grab your gun, falling down like an omen, the setting sun
2006-12-22 If you do not attach values to things, they simply become movements. We need to learn not to tear up like this: it's only movement; movement is beautiful; one flows right into the next, and you can't tell them apart. It's all one thing.
2006-12-21 the restless heart, the promised land
2006-12-21 your world's no wider than your hatred of his
2006-12-19 a brave new world
2006-12-18 If the angel deigns to come it will be because you have convinced her,
not by tears, but by your humble resolve
2006-12-16 this bell-stroke of noon and of the great decision, that makes the will free again.
2006-12-15 if it opens, it will be I, it will be the silence, where I am, I don't know, I'll never know, you must go on, I can't go on, I'll go on.
2006-12-14 using for my defence the only arms I allow myself to use -- silence, exile, and cunning.
2006-12-13 where nobody knows you and nobody gives a damn.
2006-12-12 keep track of every day the date emblazoned in yr morning
2006-12-10 a tribe lost by finding it
2006-12-08 sometimes I long to be landlocked, and to work in a bakery
2006-12-07 i live in a southern town, where all you can do is grit your teeth
2006-12-06 they say that god makes problems, just to see what you can stand, before you do as the devil pleases, and give up the thing you love
2006-12-04 i behaved like what i am, like a proper gypsy
2006-12-03 fantasy
2006-12-02 running through my veins an american masquerade
2006-11-30 i must go on, i can't go on, i'll go on.
2006-11-29 --your beloved is here--
2006-11-28 on the other hand, withinness may spit you out like a glass eye. in that case, you can paint the box black and call it JUST FOR THE THRILL
2006-11-27 It's funny how I just break down waiting on some sign
2006-11-25 the teenage queen, the loaded gun, the drop dead dream, the chosen one
2006-11-23 the synthesis of these contraries unfolds in the creative action of the historic subject
2006-11-21 One of these mornings bright and early and fine.
Not a cricket not a spirit going to shout me on.
2006-11-20 this is thailand.
2006-11-19 a woman's work is never done
2006-11-16 Carving away the mountain whose name is your childhood home
2006-11-15 if I ever see you again, remind me, because I won't remember your face
2006-11-13 You won't need to worry and you won't have to cry, over in the old Golden Land
2006-11-12 something that you feel will find its own form
2006-11-10 Paradise regained
2006-11-09 dancing in the streets
2006-11-09 morning after
2006-11-08 quiet desperation
2006-11-08 you sit there in your heartache
2006-11-07 try again
2006-11-06 Easy now -- watch it go.
2006-11-05 Songs we wrote
2006-11-03 fear and trembling
2006-11-02 this side of paradise
2006-10-31 I live in a dream
2006-10-30 May we all find a trace, a faint echo of grace, through the crack in our broken cup
2006-10-29 As the pattern becomes more intricate and subtle, being swept along is no longer enough.
2006-10-27 the city's been bled white
2006-10-26 This is Krabi Town
2006-10-23 I can gather all the news I need on the weather report
2006-10-21 F G H
2006-10-20 TODAY IS A HOLIDAY! WE'RE CELEBRATING BECKY BEING CLEAN FOR 6 MONTHS!
2006-10-20 a dialogue
2006-10-18 and sometimes you close your eyes and see the place where you used to live, when you were young
2006-10-15 thinking outrageously i write in cursive i hide in my bed with the lights on the floor
2006-10-13 The love of one's country is a splendid thing. But why should love stop at the border? -Pablo Casals
2006-10-13 Morning rain on Pelau Penang
2006-10-11 SELAMAT DATANG
2006-10-10 Thai Cultural Alphabet: A B C D E
2006-10-09 To draw into the very inside of my heart the limit that was supposed to mark it on the outside, your strangeness. But keep it strange.
2006-10-06 fold your hands, child, you look like a peasent
2006-10-04 "Teachah -- you look like a movie stah!"
2006-09-28 silence, exile and cunning
2006-09-27 mai pen rai
2006-09-25 works and days
2006-09-24 i was in bangkok for the coup and all i got was this lousy haircut.
2006-09-20 revolution!
2006-09-13 "Thai" in the Thai language means "freedom"
2006-09-12 didn't make this up i learned -- i learned it from a friend -- my friend is coming clean -- she told me: keep one eye on the door, keep one eye on the bed -- never expect to be sure -- who you're working for
2006-09-10 i'm going to live forever or die trying
2006-09-06 when the rain comes
2006-09-04 this is where we dream ourselves awake
2006-08-30 It's hard to remember, it's hard to remember, that our lives are such a short time
It's hard to remember, it's hard to remember, when it takes such a long time
2006-08-26 dear sons and daughters of hungry ghosts
2006-08-12 Malay dreams and the unbearable lightness of being
2006-08-12 this strange plan is random at best
2006-07-39 hat yai: pollution sunrise
2006-07-28 july 28: when will the tie be broken?
2006-07-27 Hatyai, July 27 -- "If dreaming and waking switched places, you'd be in Southeast Asia."
2006-07-15 california: i'm glad to be out of flatland.
2006-07-15 san diego (july 15)
2006-07-25 "welcome to lamai beach: no narcotics / no guns"
2006-07-24 random thailand thoughts from koh samui
2006-07-19 Thailand: "Land of Smiles."
Bangkok: "Smoke City"
2006-07-18 BANGKOK, THAILAND
2006-07-11 the taste of chicago fireworks acid trip: july 3 2006
2006-07-10 eaves. drop.
2006-07-08 the end of the line
2006-06-28 my wedding: june 24, 2006
2006-06-15 dayville, oregon
2006-06-11 salem, oregon.
none of this will ever be forgotten.
2006-06-06 corvallis, oregon
2006-05-17 traced her footsteps in reverse
2006-05-15 let's go to mexico and lose ourselves --
You will see the edges cut away from you, back into a world of another kind.
2006-05-12 no one knows, i live in a dream
2006-05-09 the dawn is breaking on another trembling world
2006-05-08 RAISE HIGH THE ROOF BEAM, CARPENTERS
2006-05-06 my life in pictures:
2006-05-04 THE NEW WORLD
2006-04-30 hope springs eternal
2006-04-28 can't believe how strange it is to be anything at all
2006-04-13 Palo Alto - Go west - Build a dream / Watch it fall down
2006-04-05 pdx - sf - la - sd - az
2006-03-17 the same old town that bled her dry
1970-01-21 streets wet you can tell by the sound of the cars
2006-02-25 with love from portland
2006-02-17 live from the Star E Rose on NE Alberta
2006-02-16 sometimes i think i can feel everything
2006-02-15 i know i got a bad reputation
2006-02-07 i am quiet and all i care about is trees
2006-02-02 portland: there seen showing
2006-01-25 Towns are the illusion that things hang together somehow, my pear, your winter.
2006-01-19 I told you when I came I was a stranger
2006-01-17 Thank you for choosing Amtrak. Please save or print this page for your records.
2006-01-09 For I have known them all already, known them all: / Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons, / I have measured out my life with coffee spoons; / I know the voices dying with a dying fall
2005-12-30 a series of unfortunate events
2005-12-24 it's been a long december and there's reason to believe, maybe this year will be better than the last
2005-12-20 another bullshit night in sick city
2005-12-18 from my cousin:
2005-12-15 one single-minded effort
2005-12-14 if you wanna try, if you wanna try, there's no worse you could do
i know you lie all you do is make me cry
2005-12-09 snow queen
2005-12-07 i love you
2005-11-26 GRAVITY & GRACE
we must prefer real hell to an imaginary paradise.
2005-11-25 SO IT'S ONE FOR THE RIDE THIS TIME--
EVERY DAY JUST BRING HER BACK ALIVE.
2005-11-18 My recent life can be summed up as "so many years of one single-minded effort."
(According to Dogen, one continuous mistake also be Zen.)
2005-11-11 begin the age of love
2005-11-09 And walls of light that have no end, and time of love with you my friend
2005-11-09 can't believe how strange it is to be anything at all
2005-11-07 kicked new york like a curse. traced her footsteps in reverse.
2005-11-06 there but for the grace of god go i
2005-11-03 i am the thing that goes on [beginner's mind]
2005-11-01 i love you more than one more day
2005-11-01 This is where we cry ourselves awake
2005-10-21 the heart of a broken story
2005-10-17 the end of paralysis, i was a statuette, now i'm drunk as hell, on the piano bench, and when i press the keys, it all gets reversed, the sound of loneliness makes me happier
2005-10-16 the day i lost the will to fight
2005-10-12 my soul
2005-10-11 broken pieces, try and make it good again
is it worth it, will it make me sick today?
2005-10-08 how much more can i take
2005-10-07 This is not heartbreak. I just can't sleep again. And knowing what it takes doesn't make me understand.
2005-10-06 mostly they'd meet when he was asleep and have some sick exchange
that struck him as wrong and moved him along, closer to division day
2005-10-06 to a place where the cliff just breaks off
2005-09-30 milk blood to keep from running out
2005-09-28 My stop comes just before the river
2005-09-25 Pleasure is important. Pleasure is a way of knowing people. Pleasure is the infinite experiment. Well before I fell in love I used to reason too. I was a young fan bandit. I was a bad bone. Stop the box.
2005-09-25 good news for people who like bad news.
2005-09-22 i am writing graffiti on your body, i am drawing the story of how hard we tried.
2005-09-21 unconditional and unrequited: let he who is without fault cast the first stone.
2005-09-18 210 million years of desire wash through me. Men know almost nothing about desire, they think it has to do with sexual activity or can be discharged that way. But sex is a substitute, like money or language. Sometimes I just want to stop seeing.
2005-09-17 i want to watch you lose control.[here we go again.]
2005-09-15 a distorted reality is now a necessity to be free
2005-09-14 human suffering incredible by modern standards
2005-09-11 the unbearable lightness of being
2005-09-02 rich man in a poor man's clothes, the permanent installment of the daily dose
2005-08-16 acid morning, nietzsche, a boy i met on sunday
2005-08-12 baby, your love hurts worse than heroin withdrawal
2005-08-11 down and out on the lost coast
2005-08-05 go west
2005-07-19 children waiting for the day they feel good
happy birthday, happy birthday
2005-07-13 rich man in a poor man's clothes
the permanent installment of the daily dose
2005-06-25 so far from home
6 8 2005 california driving
2005-06-06 que hora son, mi corazon?
2005-05-16 in ensenada
2005-05-13 let's go to mexico and lose ourselves
2005-04-30 if you're still free start running away
2005-04-29 arcata, california: if you're searching through life for something, it's the one thing you'll surely never find.
2005-04-19 heartache and waking up.. don't ever lie.
2005-04-17 if you love something give it away
2005-04-14 experience
2005-04-10 with the one i keep where it never fades
2005-03-23 going to the coast
2005-03-01 just make it over
2005-01-30 if you love something, give it away
2005-01-24 lately i've been wishing i had one desire, something that would make me never want another, something that would make it so that nothing mattered, all would be clear then
2005-01-14 a shooting star
2005-01-13 if you a get a feeling next time you see me
2005-01-10 i know what that metal is for
2005-01-10 fit poorly and arrange the sight, doll it up in virgin white
2005-01-05 cities in the snow
2005-01-01 here's to a lost dream
2004-12-30 mess me around, just make it over
2004-12-26 it's christmas time and the needle's on the tree, a skinny santa's bringing something to me.
his voice is overwhelming, his speech is slurred, i only understand every other word.
2004-12-24 solstice
2004-12-23 it'll be alright, it'll be ok
2004-12-15 i'm fucked
2004-12-13 suspended disbelief
2004-12-01 try to find some source of life, try to name one thing you like -- it used to be such a longer list
2004-11-27 stop counting on that camera that hangs round your neck -- cause it won't ever remember what you choose to forget
2004-11-19 Never get so attached to a poem / you forget truth lacks lyricism; / never draw so close to the heat / that you forget you must eat.
2004-11-15 set your ideals to those of the image of your idol, pull your collar tight, and walk into the storm.
2004-11-14 my blood is in revolt
2004-11-13 My friend, you would not tell with such high zest, To children ardent for some desperate glory,
The old Lie: Dulce et decorum est pro patria mori.
2004-11-12 on hawthorne
2004-11-10 so go on a pick up -- you don't care what poison you choose or what person you lose --
2004-11-08 the hurt hidden in anger, the fear disguised in arrogance, the eloquence locked in silence beyond all words, to those who look close enough to see, to those who love the faces in the city
2004-11-07 Death needs Time for what it kills to grow in
2004-11-04 stop the box -- Something shattered inside the words we use.
2004-11-02 i'm not surprised at all and really -- why should i be?
2004-10-30 "Why, if he had those talents, did he dream himself into becoming the person he became?"
2004-10-28 the devil's script sells you the heart of a blackbird
2004-10-27 a distorted reality is now a neccessity to be free
2004-10-24 in the places i forgot
2004-10-22 i hate everything
2004-10-08 i love the things that we should fear
2004-10-01 circles of meaninglessness
2004-09-28 caught you knocking at my cellar door. love you baby can i have some more?
2004-09-24 give me one good reason...
2004-09-18 open your parachute and grab your gun, falling down like an omen, a setting sun
2004-09-13 Republicans
2004-09-08 standing, smiling, on some fantasy island, waiting for the tide to pull again
2004-09-06 nothing belongs to us except in our memories
2004-08-31 the kitten scream
2004-08-25 i sold my soul to the academic machine
2004-08-21 thank you, brian
2004-08-18 i wish that i were made of stone so that i would not have to see a beauty impossible to endure, a beauty impossible to believe.
2004-08-18 klickitat the kitten: klicky the clingy klingon
2004-08-16 i got addicted to heroin and all i got was this lousy 6 dollar a day suboxone habit
2004-08-15 death and kittens
2004-08-11 the hosford abernethy stealth terrorist
2004-08-11 6 animals. 1 room. 1 job. no money. lots of hope & beauty.
2004-08-03 not at all
2004-08-03 the information about what happens inside is somehow encoded on the surface of its boundary
2004-07-19 i come back when you want me to
2004-07-18 shine on me baby, cause it's raining in my heart
2004-07-15 A line which approaches nearer to some curve than assignable distance, but, though infinitely extended, would never meet it.
2004-07-13 kittens
2004-07-05 sometimes i think i can feel everything
2004-06-26 standing, smiling, on some fantasy island
2004-06-22 been down so long it looks like up to me
2004-06-18 the forcast
2004-06-16 watch out, i'm armed
2004-06-15 no
2004-06-14 good news for people who like bad news
2004-06-13 took a long time to stand
2004-06-11 everything is gone but the echo of the burst of a shell
2004-06-10 the same old town that bled her dry
2004-06-09 don't let me be carried away
2004-06-07 you say you've gone away from me but i can feel you when i breathe
2004-06-04 read the part and return at five, it's a hell of a role if you can keep it alive
2004-06-03 and i try to be, but you know me i come back when you want me to.
2004-06-01 standing on a hill in the rain
2004-05-31 a clean bedroom dream
2004-05-28 the safety of the pitch black mind
2004-05-25 and i'd do anything just to hear you say, it'll be all right, it'll be ok
2004-05-22 and be forever with my poison arm around you
2004-05-16 this is the place you'll end up when you lose the chase,
where you're dragged against your will, from a basement on a hill
2004-05-15 So I wait for the F train (white city on the yellow line)
2004-05-13 i had plans for both of us that involved a trip out of town, to a place i've seen in a magazine that you left lying around
2004-05-12 with love from brooklyn
2004-05-10 how long i've been running
2004-05-02 "you will be collecting a series of unshakable addictions..."
2004-04-21 beginner's mind
2004-04-19 let's go to tijuana and lose ourselves
2004-04-16 out of the frying pan and into the fire
2004-04-12 i want to watch you lose control
2004-04-09 sun kissed
2004-04-07 here we go again
2004-03-31 you draw up your ego not from the stains on the black satin sheet, but from the precision of the poem within... the torturous, elegant process of each clean, white page fulfilled.
2004-03-24 SAN FRANCISCO. there seen showing.
2004-03-20 for a few minutes she liked you. but the fix is in.
2004-03-17 blood lust
2004-03-14 this is why we turn away
2004-03-13 with the one i keep where it never fades, in the safety of a pitch black mind
2004-03-07 too much is never enough / PALO ALTO / palms approaching infinity
2004-03-06 create the clues and the world follows
2004-03-05 morning
2004-03-03 you get what you want but you don't know what you're looking for
2004-03-02 it's sure as fate and hard as your luck
2004-02-29 carrying my life on my back
2004-02-28 it's just a brief smile crossing your face
2004-02-26 i'll kiss you again, between the bars where i'm seeing you there, with your hands in the air, waiting to finally be caught
2004-02-24 now i am home
2004-02-21 donna, whisper something in becky's ear
2004-02-15 if it opens, it will be i, it will be the silence
2004-02-13 not if you were the last junkie on earth
2004-02-11 i know how i begin and how i'll end
2004-02-09 bled white
2004-01-05 biography
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