i talked to donna for a long time this morning and that helped. we even looked into changing my ticket but it was too expensive. i am delirious, i haven't slept in days, and i won't sleep for another 3 days because i'll be on a bus, in the bangkok airport, and on a plane, for 3 nights.

i bought presents for all my family members and donna and natalie... as much as i could with only like one day of shopping. i got a bunch of people thai fisherman pants because they're cool.

brian started smoking again.

i almost changed my mind to stay again today, and then he started yelling again, and i thought, ok, this is the sign.

well the bus is coming in a minute so i guess this is goodbye.

see you at the ends of the earth.